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I'll admit, I totally forgot about this till the last day I was supposed to type this up because of prom preparations, so to all you underclassmen, don't do what I did haha. Anyways, I found this testimony that I wrote a while ago for something that I don't remember, but it was probably during a very dark time. I also tweaked it because the one I wrote didn't make sense to me as I typed it.

  An imperfect person like me doesn't deserve to be loved or even shown love. However, that doesn't stop God from loving someone even like me. God didn't hate anyone, and that's because God is love. He chose to love me, even though I was unfaithful, sinful, and not what I should be--a true Christian. Sure, no one is defined as a "true Christian", but I am far from being the ideal Christian. My life clearly doesn't reflect what Jesus' life was like. However, God still loved me anyways. He showed me love that no one ever showed me. 

  I personally believe that God's love comes in multiple flavors, the first one being grace. God loved me so much that He showed me grace by dying on the cross for me. I live a pretty sinful life and I probably don't deserve to talk to God, but because I know that Jesus died for my sins for me, I can experience his graceful love. I feel so dirty at times and so full of sin, but I know that God still loves me with love that I don't deserve. He heals me in my sicknesses, calms me when I am troubled, forgives me when I am not worthy, and even shows me miracles here and there. 

  The second type of love is his abundant love for me. The many times I sinned against Him, the many times he showed his love for me still. There were many times in my junior year when I felt really distant from God because I put myself in a place where I thought I wouldn't bother God. Boy was I wrong. His love stretches from the east to the west; there is no place that you can go to where His love can't reach. Because His love is so vast and incomprehensible, I still don't understand His love, yet still accept it, because it is by HIs love that I am forgiven and saved. 

  There are many more types of love, but in short, His love is summed up as my redemption from eternal separation from Him. If you ever feel like you don't deserve His gracious love, you're wrong. When Jesus died for us, He paid the price for us so that we could be loved by being with our Creator forever, if that made any sense. 

Anyways, this song was played really frequently during my junior year because it just reminded me of who God really was--someone who was waiting with arms wide opened for us. I was really broken that year, and even as I listen to the song now, it brings me to tears.

Hopefully I didn't bore you with that testimony, but that's what was on my heart so I put it on pen and paper.